god is on everyone's side no matter who they are. humanists have very little understanding of the divine will. humans are cells that clump together into organs. these organs make up another cell that makes up another organ in another organism. its an endless cycle. a human body has no conscious control over its individual cells but the DNA (holy spirit) is present in them. the planet is going through puberty and the wars are nothing more than zits that have to be popped god IS the rapist, war monger etc. i think the problem is your lack of understanding for larger concepts than humanity. you seem to want to anthropomorphize your concept of god which is why your search for spiritual truths ends in failure. god isnt a good word for it, granted. the vernacular is where things of this sort get confusing and we have bloody wars over the same concepts and principals under different buzz words. until you stop seeing god as something that exists in your reality tunnel and is bound by your concepts of morality you wont ever see IT. although the joke is that its all you have ever seen. i suppose it could be likened to an animal seeing itself in the mirror and not cognitive of the higher functions necessary to recognize itself. if you really want to get a clearer image of things then you have to break out of your character. you have to experience things from as many perspectives as possible. you cant do the same routine every day and become 'deep'. you have to dig. the more varied your experiences are the more experienced you become. this is why people like hitler and george bush exist. they are the inevitability of endless masks. in order to be omniscient you have to experience everything through every single possible set of eyes on every single variable. do you understand me yet?