I feel like I just can't really enjoy the world at all anymore. I mean, I am young, one of the brightest, and on the brink of getting two college degree from separate universities. I can pay off my college loans while still being able to live a financially stable lifestyle, given the job, and maintaining my trademark debaucherous lifestyle. The problem is, I keep asking myself, "What's the point for me?" Sure some people say, "Oh, well you're supposed to have kids and raise a family!" Well, to me, that would be impossible due an incident at a younger age, I was rendered infertile from a radiation incident, so the proverbial silo is "empty of grain." So then maybe someone would say "Oh, well then adopt! There's plenty of children that do not have parents or loved ones!" To this, I look at how children are nowadays; spoiled, rotten, demanding instead of asking. Expecting things to be like some fairytale world where their heroes are rappers, juggalos, guiedos, and emos. To be honest, I'd probably strangle the kid in a fit of rage from something stupid they would have done. And we all know my stance on religion, how it's main focus has strayed from generally being, "pretty cool guys who don't afraid of anything," to "DO THIS OR BURN IN HELL WHILE YOUR FAMILY IS ASSRAPED BY LUCIFER WITH A BARBWIRE AND BRIMSTONE COCKPIECE!" I know I could change the world with all the crazy patents I have, but given the way the world is now (suffocated by corporate interest), nothing could be beneficial, and would probably end up either debt-out-the-ass overpriced, or locked away in some jew-vault underground. In using any intellectual thought process, on the biological, spiritual, and social levels, it seems that I am rendered useless by all means. I'm writing this, not as some BAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWW or an hero notice, I mostly wrote this because I don't really have anyone else to talk to on level ground (considering most of the women I fuck are either as dumb as a door knob, or batshit crazy, and are pretty much the only social interaction I have offline). Am I just being too cynical, or am I on the right track here? Still, this will either be deleted or trolled to the proverbial depths of internet Hell and back, but I'll probably feel a little better after posting. ------------------------------ TL;DR Alcohol and pills.